123.... 慢慢开始心谈

原来我开始发现，有些事情上你没有用到心。。。
有时候，是我的问题，然后又是你的问题，
没完没了
然后我们都喊累，
原来大家都有自己的生活忙着，久之，没有放在心上！
刚开始觉得很生气，之后习惯了，因为都可以猜到你再做什么，
一定再忙啦。。。。没办法！！
放弃啦，这世界没有“谁没有谁”这个道理，我们还是必须往自己的理想努力吧
这样比较实际！！地球还是园的，事情还是无绝对。。。

The reality

When i was small i always dream that i need a wonderful wedding with this n that, must wearing wat type of gown and marry wit a guy with wat kind of appearance, etc.... But ages by ages i just realize that mr right is quite difficult to find out, u need to find a guy who ll treat u sincerely and can livewit u with the rest of the life this point is the difficult one~!! Recently i met a frien who elder than me, she talk with me about how she ponit of view of marriage, may b she bcome older and now she wished is simple, she hoped can marry wit the mr right she was searching, not invited many of ppl and would marry in a small church with the blessing with lord and relative, that's enof.... In short, i just realiz marriage can b that simple bt i think the most important is the mr right..... so i hope all of the ppl can find the one u try to search for ur whole life!!

i wanna to slimm

i know, this topic i hav talked it for quite a long time ago, bt not yet come true... anf i still a fat gal!!! yesterday i shopping.... and i feel sad there not much clothes tat i can wear....
so so sad!!!so i must to keep fit... especially my face

cross junction

Sometimes i quite wondering wat i make decision is good? is that wat exactly wat i want? Yesterday i being scored by my friend, she said if i were u i will be his girl friend!!! and i just smiled said yeah.... he quite rich now... he is a taiwanese my exclassmate and he chase me fr year 2 bt i declined as i not ready to hav love! then end up now he has many shops and villas, and many gals of my class wanna to beat me up bc i lose up this "jin gui xu" aih.... not mine then is not mine... let it be lah...

Not so Good

Last nite i have a bad dream bcos i dream of my ex boy friend. In the dream i can clearly see that guy in good condition, wealth, high post, happy family and he say forunately not wit me, in that dream i feel myself not tat good and have nothing.... i just stand at there stare my ex bf!!! this scene so sad for me make me hav no mood for this whole morning and not going to wotk and stay at room and wanna take a rest!!! feel tire... and dont wan do anything!!! bad ... bad... so i need to stnad independent on myself to earn money for my family.... dont wanna to be a loser!!

bday gal

Today is my birthday, but nothing special and this year is my 1st year having bday at china!! haha.... after having 24 hours on duty at hospital i feel a bit tire.... and fall asleep at noon and wake up then go to dinner wit my friend judy. we celebrate together with judy dad!! as his bday on 1st of aug!! i feel not so happy may b i quite like being at home.... more than being at here!! quite different feel1!!
happy day to myself and life also continue.... hope my life at here going smooth and good!!!
wish me all the best being last year at china!!

Distance

This few weeks i very strongly feel that we got the big distance in between and now i step my feet n thinking about it whether i should continue go for it! Now, we just seem to hav d responsibilty to leav msg to each other wat doin... actually without communicate is quite difficult to hold a relationship so i think better to b frien! I always hear the reason of " sorry again 2nite i am busy to help who n who to do things, if it continue weeks i ll feel bored of it... then 4get! i jus know u r busy n seem i cant do anythings 4 u than i quit appear in front u! Now i so suit mysellf to having my life myself without u!

The simple i am now!

Now i need to work from monday to saturday morning!! Most of the days i at hospital with patients! i quite like this style of life! so great it is!! everysay i am so busy and time pass so fast and i can organize my dairy life quite nice! After i work i will back to hostel and i will prepar lunch or dinner with my friends! So now most of the time we cook together and ear and go to market together! or sometimes busy then i ll directly eat at canteen skul!! so the only day i really can rest is sunday .... so now i quite seldom go to church with the reason busy and i need to rest or other things!!haha.... say really rest is come 1st gua... plus now the whether quite hot and make me no mood going anyway!!
Stay at hostel is the best as i can have my air condition!! so i quite like noon stay at hospital bc got free air con plus i can learn things.... so everyday i ll say to myself go to pratical orelse i ll pangkang at my room1!

New place

I hav move to hostel already a week! i feel more better than last time one, 1stly i no need to go up the stairs for 9 floor! and it is quite near to d hospital i pratical now~!! i quite like the room i hav now, i now stay at 7th floor with elelator , single room. the things i more like is i can go to my friend room chit chat as i like... whole of all i quite satisfy!!! now the good things is my friend will cook for me as she really feel tat wat i cook not good to have .... haha... nvm...

It feel GREAT!

i cant log in this webpages for 3 months thnaks god finally i can view this webpage and continue to write my diary! As long i stay at china i really hate the way they think especially they will try their best to block their news to their nation know and not allow their resident to view international known webpage such as youtube, facebook, blogger etc.... really wan to keep them away of knowing other things they might not know! so funny is if u wan to know more about international news or wat happen recently at tibet u need to go to other web to see the news! they will not issue it in news or newspaper!!! But anyway, i quite thankful i am nit their citizen!!! bc i really dislike the way china government make!!

变数

我发现有些事情在短短的几个月或几年，都有可能发生许许多多的变数！！ 可能我们预料到即将发生的事情，往往很多事情的发生都出乎意料，我每次都说，早知道这样这样。。。 我就不会那样那样那样！！
在这短短的四年，我可以看到我身边朋友也发生很多事情，如同居的分居，结婚的离婚，就算是短短的四年，都可以让你看清一个人，他是到底是个怎样的人！！当然，也有一些好的事情，我班上很多人可以，一边读书，一边结婚，一边读书，一边生小孩！很厉害吧。。。
因为我的班上的同学年龄都偏大，很少很小的。。。。也因为这样，也丰富了我的人生。。。

想念

今天，我看了一个新电影，新加坡的电影，大喜事，范文芳和李铭顺演的，很好看！也有往马六甲取景!看了这部片，让我更更加想念家！好熟悉的样子和味道！！新加坡的“国民金童玉女”范文芳和李铭顺下半年终于要“拉埋天窗”，电影公司乘势赶在农历新年档期推出这部应景贺岁片，赚钱之余，被很多人认为是两人真正的“大喜事”的预演（顺便也拉拉赞助…）。
剧情其实还蛮搞笑的：两个电影明星因为各自的原因，在经纪人的“撮合”下，从假拍拖到假结婚，最后玩出真感情来。这种题材如果好好把握细节，可以成为非常叫座的cash cow。而实际上这部电影的前半部也的确做得不错：两个自私男女根本就互相看不顺眼，却硬要在人前扮恩爱，结果甜蜜蜜的婚纱照的另一面是两人在背后“互掐”，火辣辣的亲热戏的前半场竟是摔跤格斗！最经典爆笑的一段是：两人被迫同居，第一天就大吵，Gigi（范文芳）叫子杰（李铭顺）跟自己保持12英寸的距离，子杰的回答是“我没那么长，只有10寸半！”可惜到了后半部，电影为了“政治正确性”，硬给男女主角的欺骗行为安上冠冕堂皇的理由，连带捧了一把马来西亚老大哥的淳朴民风（跟电影里的角色正好相反，实际上李铭顺是马六甲人，范文芳才是土生土长的新加坡人）。再加上连篇累牍的广告（电影里出现的肉干产品、餐馆、楼盘等等，在新加坡都是真实存在，也肯定都是出了真金白银的），让人不胜其烦。就不知道到了真正的“李范联婚”的时候，会不会也拉这么多的赞助商？
不妨看看咯，歌也很好听！！

5.12 四川地震

不知不觉,四川的地震发生已经一年了,回想起来那时候,心就会感觉到痛.有多少的小孩被埋起来,有多少人就一瞬间什么都没了,没有家,没有亲人!这些的情况,好像是昨天才发生的!很震撼人心,一场灾害的威力,一瞬间可以毁掉一切,你身边最重要的任何事.
这一间灾害当中,死盲率最高的是小学和中学生,为什么?可能兴建学校的材质有问题吧,豆腐渣工程吧...
其实,当时我最记得的一张照片,一个人的手在地里,都不知是死还是活着的,但当他们把它挖出来的时候,那位小孩已经去世了!
所以,珍惜你身边的人吧,尤其父母,生命其实很短暂!

你怎么看同性恋？

我今天跟我的朋友聊到这个话题，其实我自己很随便看这个问题，当然首先会被吓倒，然后还是默默接受！
可是，如果被问到自己的孩子如果是同性恋，该怎么办？依我的个性，我会管，然后希望他还是放弃当一个同性恋，可能会反对吧。。。别人怎么样都可以，但一旦事发生自己的身边就难以接受了！
然后，我朋友才跟我讲说，其实那些同性恋者们面对的压力也相当大！外面的人也未必能接受，自己的家人一直反对，向他施压。但往往忘了关心，而不是发生事情的时候，一味只想着自己的感受，当事人也要关心，他们的心灵，他们面对的东西，或者通过这个方式，大家会比较好一些吧。。。
这件事也提醒我一件事，凡是不要往自己那边想。。。多了解别人对自己会好一些的。。。

Happy mother's day 09

Today is mother's day but i not a good daughter as i hav many years not celebrate with my mom this event for years since i at china! So, i also seldom help house work as well, everytime i back i need a period to fix myself at my house even half a year or more than tat my house got little change... like this time i back to my home, i quite not suit myself with the stupid alarm system at my house! I always forget it lock or not and try to open the windows or doors.... then it keep noisy.... then i will say" shit!" foe this thing!
If you need me try to discribe my mom she is quite slim and even is my mom look like my sis! She always wear my clothes and show we how fit as she is as she not yet hav "SPARE Tyres" yet!! Even though she older than we 20 years old then she not look so old or hav child as big as me! Last year sept, she went to my campus and went to class wit me. Many of my classmates said if that gal is my frien!so happy she is...

contract

Today i will send my dear a love contact inside there we set some agreement and reminder for each other to protect and make sure we not hav the mistekes again anf quarrel for d some things!!

Dunno this contract work or not... i just try it.... so hope can avoid quarrel happens and fight again.... haha... Today whole day i stick at home as usual for every sat bc i need to clean up my messy room and hav skype wit my family members...

But times past fast i can use one day so fast and sometimes dunno wat i hav done... it's ok for me for lonely sat and i quite enjoying it!!

结扎手术

如果你问我，结扎手术谁做比较好，当然是男生！因为从生理性来说，女生要做结扎手术要丛输卵管做，而男生是从输精管做，而且男性的伤口比女性小，算是微创，当对女生来说相当于手术。男生一般用两三天就能痊愈，女生用的时间比较长。。。
但，男生做完手术，是不怕影响性欲的，一样可以有高潮，一样可以射，但是只是前列腺水而已！所以，男生们如果你们以后遇到这种问题，如果你爱你老婆，你就不会让他挨刀！！

Hate when being period!!

Today is my 1st day of period, i pain till wan to faint down may b last nite i tak bitter guard as my dinner then i hav my suffer this noon...
Fortunately, this noon class can b skip than i just can hav my rest on y bed!
After rest, now ok le, but i think many gals got the problem of paint during period time... it really suffer.....

原来我念错那么多年！

我不知我身边的人，有多少会犯这样的错。。。
我最近才知道，我念错这个字那么多年。。。
我从小都这样念，
鋤禾日當午，汗滴禾下土，誰知盤中餐，粒粒皆辛苦
有一天给我朋友骂！我才知道我读错了。。。
其实是：
鋤禾日當午，汗滴禾下土，誰知盤中飧（sun)，粒粒皆辛苦
所以，朋友们不要念错啦！！

my new hair

This is my new hair..

is it nice?

haha.... i quite like it bc...

i can put it in or put it out as i like...

haha...

quite nice~~~

Is it start?

I try to have a place to write my blog but unfortunately i quite stupid using these things and dunno use it... okay i will try my best i really hope it works,as claire u will help me rite.... really hope once i start it i will continue... and won't stop